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When you left



Vernie Naraja, November 8, 2012


Like being awoken from a deep slumber by a thunder;
Like a vase being smashed into shards;
Like a glass window being stricken with a baseball bat, its broken pieces flying everywhere;
Like a candle lit out with one blow, making darkness fill the room;
Like a car that has come to a sudden halt
Or a gadget whose battery has run out;
Like a rubber band that has reached its elastic limit and breaks;
Like being pricked by a needle for the very first time
Or accidentally scraping your knee;
Like how a kid feels when she unintentionally drops her candy;
Or how it feels when a bully tears your first masterpiece;
Or when your castle of sand is blown by the wind;
Like walking in stiletto heels for long hours;
Like flunking in a major exam and getting grounded for weeks
Or listening to music you really hate;
Like being humiliated in front of the public;
Like exerting so much effort and getting nothing in return;
Like an alarm clock pulling you away from fantasy and back to reality;
Like being tortured for falling in love;
When you innocently thought it was not a crime
That, just so you know, is how I felt when you left.

First Day


You wake up to the sound of a bell. Not your alarm clock, but a bell in your neighborhood that rings at exactly seven in the morning every day. It’s too cold – that cold that makes you too lazy to do anything.

You’ve got to prepare for the first day of class or at least continue reading the novel you have read during the break just to dawdle away the remaining hours you got before your class starts. You look up at the clock on the wall. 7:05. It’s seven still. 

Too groggy to sit up, you cocooned in bed and covered yourself with the thick blanket. You doze off.


The cold makes sleep come easily. You dream of someone. All the thoughts of him are on replay in your mind. It is a damn nice dream that you wish so bad it was real… that that time would freeze… that you can live in that place, in that moment, forever.

You wake up at yet another sound. This time, it’s your alarm clock deafening your ears, waking you up from fantasy.

8:00. You don the dress that you bought the other week just for this day. Not that it is special but you said to yourself you’d somehow increase your self-esteem in every way you can – and dressing up is one way. A little blush to bring color to your cheeks and eyeliner is also good – less is more. Operation Self Esteem – Day one. 

You arrive at school. Maybe you’re too early because you can find three students in your classroom. Surely, there’s more to come. For no reason at all, you choose to sit in the corner. You put your mp3 on and let the music take you away from the world again.

At a sudden, you hear someone call your name. You find it weird. It’s the first day of school and someone knows you already? Wait. Oh right, maybe it’s your classmate last semester.

You slowly open your sleepy eyes and find solace in those two beautiful eyes staring back at you. That mesmerizing, tantalizing, alluring, heart-warming gaze of the man of your dreams makes you wonder why such creature exists. 

“Hey, class will start in a while,” he says as he takes the seat next to you. You melt.

How the hell can you possibly focus for the rest of the semester with a distraction like that?




You can’t ‘coz you won’t

By: Vernie Naraja
Written: March 17, 2012

Heart’s broken, soul’s crushed
You keep reminiscing
What both of you had.

What to do now? Where to go now?
You keep asking
What made you fall for him

You just…





*
Believed in lies
Fell for his smiles
Drowned in the depths of his pretty eyes

Lived his kind of life
Forgetting what it’s like
To be the one you used to be

Gave everything he wanted
Just to make him glad
Pleased him in every way you can

But in return, what did he do?
He cheated on you
And made you feel blue

You’ve been wondering
Always have been
Despite all the pain, can you let go of him?

#
I bet you can’t
I bet you won’t
He’s a part of you
The one you care the most

I bet you can’t
I bet you won’t
You love him so much
A love he can’t return

I bet you can’t
I bet you won’t
I know it without a doubt,
He’s the one you can’t live without.

--
Sleepless nights, fading lights
Your keep crying
yourself to sleep

Life’s empty, heart’s weary
You keep wishing
You didn’t fall for him


But you still…

REPEAT (*, #)

The things we do for love

By: Vernie Naraja
Written: 8/4/11

I.
Love can make a fool of any man
‘tmakes you do the things you can’t
‘tmakes you chase the moon or catch the stars
or burn under the scorching heat of the summer sun.

II.
Love can make a fool of any man.
‘tmakes you do things you’ve never done
‘tmakes you run for her, your only one
despite the unbearable chills of the cold winter air.

III.
Love can make a fool of any man.
it’s what makes you walk miles for
it’s what makes you cross oceans for
‘tmakes you do what you think are impossible

IV.
Love can make a fool of any man.
You cannot undo the things you’ve done.
‘tcould take away your sanity, break you to pieces
and turn your life into a complete mess

V.
Doofuses of love we may be
But we can’t be blamed for
travails d’amour mes amis.




Hallways

by: Vernie Naraja
written: August 8, 2011


If by chance we meet
In the hallways,
I wonder what you think of
The moment you see me

Do you see a good old friend?
Or a past you have forgotten?
Do you see someone who’s been a part of your life?
Or a complete stranger, a nobody?

Do you have second thoughts of saying hello?
Or at least putting up a smile before you go?
Or you’re really busy to say anything
And just walk past me, ignoring me completely?

I really am wondering,
because I think of a lot of things
the moment I see you
if by chance we meet in the hallways.

I think of the busy days we’ve spent together;
all the errands we had to do just to meet deadlines;
the laughters we’ve shared despite all the left-handed compliments we’ve received;
the silly jokes and all the teasing.

I think of the soda I spilled in your notebook;
your very long to-do list;
your poignant words, your inspiring actions;
your accomplishments, your greatness.

I’d have second thoughts of saying hello
‘coz maybe you’ll ignore me if I do
I get preoccupied and think for minutes
but it’d only take seconds and you’re gone already.

what do you really think of
the moment you see me
if by chance we meet
in the hallways?


I need an answer.
I need you to answer.
I am really wondering.
It’s perturbing.

Just because years have long rested between us
Doesn’t mean we have to ignore each other.
And just so you know,
I miss you too.





as long as..

As long as the
Rain still reaches the ground, the
Waves still touches the shore,
I'd wrap you in my arms.

As long as the
Cloud kisses the mountains, the
River meets the sea,
I'd hold on to you.

As long as the
Sun shines at daytime, and the
Moon gives brightness at night,
I'm not letting go of you.

As long as I’m breathing,
And for as long as
We both shall live,
I will never let you go.

For as long as destiny permits,
Or even it prohibits
“Me and you"
I’m never ever gonna let you go.

"hahamakin lahat, masunod ka lamang.."



rain and tears

It’s raining hard tonight.
There is no presence of stars.
Darkness is everywhere I look.
I’m alone in the corner with no one to hold.

The wind’s so cold, I’m shivering.
And the thought of you leaving
Makes me shiver even more…
Shiver… in a bad way..

Your love isn’t giving me warmth.
Because you had no love for me at all.
That love that I’ve been longing since the day I loved you,
Is destined to be given to someone else, to someone you love.

Ugh.

It seems like the weather is sympathizing with me.
My tears keep flowing, and the rain won’t stop falling.

bad memories...

I feel depressed when I remember bad memories.
They make me wanna go back in time.
They make me wish that I did the right thing,
That I made the right move at the right time

Sometimes I want to have
An erase button in my brain
So that when I commit a mistake, I’d just push it
And the bad memory would just fade in a blink of an eye.

Yet, I can’t do anything but to move on.
I can’t lock myself up with the chains of the past.
I have to let go of it and face the present.
After all, bad memories are just memories.

Bad memories…

Why choose to remember them
When you can remember the good ones?


Oh tell me,...until when?

At twilight, I always wait for the first star to show up.
When the sun has finally found its rest
When darkness embraces the whole street,
I’d sit somewhere and to the sky, I look up.

The first star, which is also the brightest star, in my every night’s sky
Reminds me of someone whom I can’t get over with.
Someone so warm, so tender, and kind
The only man who caught my attention.

Until when can I stay like this?
Looking at the star, while thinking about him?
When can I stop acting like this?
Until when? Oh, tell me, ‘til when?

----

How I wish I could stop associating
The first star with him.
I want to see the first star as it is,
A star that outshines every other star =)

i love my dad more than any man IN THIS WORLD =)



Dad and I were watching a flight attendant on TV.
That tall height, fair skin, and slender body amused me.
Oh, and her face is like a Barbie’s
I wanted to be like that, but I can’t be.

Duh, I can’t go to Belo and have these
Imperfect features of mine undergo a surgery.
Aside from money constraints,
I am afraid of the side effects. [hahahaha]

oy, kaibiganin mo'ko ulit!


Masaya tayo nuon.
Nagkukwentuhan, nagdadamayan, nagtatawanan.
Naging mahalagang parte ka ng buhay ko
Nang limang taon.

Ni minsan, hindi ko naisip na hahantong tayo sa ganito.
Hindi na nagpapansinan.
Wala nang “oy verns!”
Wala nang imikan.

Teru and Daisy

--this work is inpired by the Manga, Dengeki Daisy (sa makasabot lang)--

Before my brother left me in this world,
He gave me a cellphone* which would
Connect me to the only person whom
I could rely on, a person whom I could trust.

Before my friend left me in this world,
He entrusted me his sister,
As payment for betraying and putting his life in danger.
He asked me to communicate with her.

on rainy days..



--this poem is inspired by the manga, Dengeki Daisy--

On rainy days, you'd feel so weak and lonely,
You'd remember the traumatic incident that you had in the past
But, I want you to know that
I love rainy days because of you.

Do you still remember the first time we got to know each other?
It was on a day when the rain continued for days.
It was the first time that you asked for my help.
And it was the first time that my words caressed you.

"no" was all i could say



Once, you called me in the middle of the night
Asking me if you would really continue to court her
It made me want to say no
Because I had feelings for you too

Our talk just lasted for minutes but,
Your question really stuck on my mind
"Should I court her, vernie?"
"No" was all I could say.

could you still sing a song for me?



Whenever I'm alone,
You would call me.
You'd lessen the loneliness that I feel
By singing a song.

Whenever I'm sad,
You'd try to cheer me up
And make me feel better
By singing a song.

Whenever I'm angry,
Whenever I lose my temper,
You'd try to calm me,
By singing a song.

But, now that you're busy...
busy taking care of HER.
Now that you're not here,
How could you sing a song for me?

Now that you spend all your time with her,
Now that your world revolves around her,
Now that i'm left alone, sad, angry and.. jealous,
Could you still sing a song for me?

I bet you can't.
Because the song that
You usually sing for me,
Is for HER now.

---aammbott, last night, i had nothing to do, so,i made this..
this was the result of INSOMNIA.. :)))

maling akala

You thought he's just ordinary.
You thought he's innocent.
You thought he's just simple
But those thoughts were wrong.

When you look at him,
He looks so kind and gentle.
It's as if you've met someone
Who would console you, when you’re in pain.

When you speak to him,
He gives out that sweet smile,
A smile that would wipe all your worries away
A smile that could drive every girl crazy

When you read his poems,
You'll be hypnotized by his words.
And eventually, without you knowing it,
You'll fall under his trap.
You'd start to like him
You'll search everything about him
Only to find out that
He's not what you think of.

He's not ordinary.
He's not innocent.
He's not simple.
All your thoughts were wrong.



Maraming namamatay sa maling akala geng.


friends, that's all we can be.

Whenever we're together,
I feel something strange.
My heart would beat faster,
And blood would flow to my cheeks.

A lot of times, I've thought of confessing.
Yet, my fear would win over my courage.
I'm afraid that he'll walk away,
So it's better to hide this feeling.

One day, a friend told me that he's leaving.
I didn't know what to do.
Should I confess of should I not?
But, it's better to do it, before it's too late.

"ei…", I said, still finding my courage.
"I..uhm…I", I had a hard time saying it.
"yes, Vern?" he said with a sweet tone.
"uhm, i..aahh, I have..a crush on you."

He paused. "uhmm, Vern,", his tone was sad..
"We can be friends." [-------------]
It was as if my whole world went dark
And my heart was stabbed a million times.

Friends, that's all we can be
For his heart is taken by someone I don’t know.
Friends, that's all we can be
For he's leaving to go after that someone whom he loves.

Well, anyway, my goal was just to confess,
Nothing more, nothing less.



poems


Each letter symbolizes the notes of an octave.
Each word is like a measure of a song.
Each phrase tells a harmonious rhythm of an orchestra.
Each line represents the movements of a symphony.
Each stanza flows like arpeggio that catches a reader's heart.

Poems are like musical pieces written for a common purpose:
To express one’s feelings.



being afraid

Afraid to commit mistakes?
Don’t be.
For it is in making mistakes
That we grow as a person.

Afraid or failures?
Don’t be.
For it is in failing
That we learn to stand up.

Afraid of taking risks?
Don’t be.
For it is in taking risk
That we’re able to know how capable we are in doing great things.

Afraid to change for the better?
Don’t be.
For it is resistance that hinders a person
From developing his or her skills.

Afraid to start again?
Don’t be.
Nothing may start easy;
But remember: what is most difficult is also most rewarding.

Don’t be afraid.
You’ll never know how far you can go
And how best you can be
If you don’t even try.

Let go of fear
For it control prevents you from living fully;
It isolates, restricts and
Separates you from the real you.

Learn to take a leap out of your comfort zone,
And discover how beautiful the world is, outside.


three things women can do with men

“There are three things women can do with men,
-love them,



suffer for them,


or TURN THEM INTO LITERATURE”
-Stephen Stills





Stephen's absolutely right. Some of us girls fall for boys so quickly. We allow their "sweet-talk" to get us. We easily believe in their disheartening lies. We allow them to take advantage of our feelings. But despite that fact, we still continue to love them. We even write poems and songs for them. Isn’t that being masochistic?



We give them what they want. We're always there whenever they need us. Listen to them when they’ve got problems with their GFs, and stuffs like that. But, we never asked for a love in return. Isn’t that enough to please them? to satisfy them?

UGH. Were they told by their mom not to hurt a girl’s heart? These playboys need a rehab.

**hoy IKAW! Break my friend’s heart again. And hide in a place where I could not see you ‘coz i’ll seek vengeance for my friend jud. >.<